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DEAR was boring.

MT: Got scolded because I didn't do one freaking question and I handed in my work. I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO. Then she said something like, "taktahu buat, takboleh cari kamus ke?" I already find the word on the dictionary like 71828202949 times and the explanation makes no sense at all. At least I didn't copy the given sentence on the dictionary like all the other students in the class. She's always picking on me. Always with her kumpulan zarinah. Then I pass Liyana my worksheet because I was done with it and we usually put our paper together before handing it up then she thought Liyana was copying my work and she was screaming her head off about how if we copy each other's work we will redo everything. LIYANA WASN'T EVEN COPYING MY WORK! Naik darah sak. She kept on lecturing the class about homework not given in early and stuffs. You scold me and Liyana for not doing one or two questions and you didn't scold Hilman or Hadi for not handing in their work for almost 2 weeks?! Bias.

Maths: Continued on Chapter 5: Modular.

Recess: Read book again. Finally finished Pretty Little Things and returned it. I lent boyfriend my story book - Jacob's Ladder. If he really read it I'd be so touched. Hehe.

D&T: Three periods. Did practical and um, we're progressing so slowly on this. Shit. Our form was only made like only today. Ok, actually our product is simple. We're just lazy to get it done fast.

Maths: -same-

History: Started on War in Europe. Ms Polina came again. She's been coming to our class and becoming the "calefare" teacher who teaches us how to pronounce all the german, france words. She's like a human dictionary. Hehe.

Why was everyone showing their attitude throughout the day? I was like so hyper and stuffs but everyone was too moody to entertain me. Sigh.

After school, Huda went to find Ms liau and we accompanied. Then, we told Ms liau everything about how we can't cope with our studies and all and she told us we could quit guitar if we wanted to. Huda went home because she wanted to study for test and me, Fatiha and Liyana went to guitar.

It was overall ok because we didn't play the guitar. Ha. Ha. Ha. Mr Ng was like,"After your EOY examinations are over, I'll push you guys hard and no more chances will be given." and stuffs like that, even when we told him we, sec 3s, can't participate in SYF, he was like, you still can do it. Hopeless. Don't depend on us anymore. What we used to be is the past and now, we're not like how we were.

I did my math revision and was freezing in the AVA. So, we went up to the outside library study area and did our revision. I really, really want to pass this test. I don't want to let Ms Phang down but I know, I will. What's new? I suck at everything in math.

Went home, solat asar and buka. Then maghrib, solat terawih. Then did my revisions, and seriously I was on the verge of tears. My heart was beating so fast. Seriously. My head was spinning. Literally. I have uncompleted homeworks dued tomorrow. I have a major math test that seriously means a lot to me. Every math test means a lot to me. Yes, I was stressed. Ok, not that stressed but I was lost. I just vomitted after buka. My headache came back. My fever too. Boyfriend told me he had fever, which was quite high and I was worried sick about him. Even so, I couldn't do anything. Useless. I continued with my revisions, despite the headache. Wei Hong wanted to talk to me because he had a problem. He's so nice to ask me every single day in school and at home, what's my temperature. He had a problem and he approached me at twitter direct messages. Yes, relationship, friendship, family, religion and studies matter more than my health. I lent him my ear and tried to help but at situations like that, I can't. Headache got worse, and I told boyfriend to sleep because i can't entertain too many people, so I chose to ignore everyone and i mean everyone. My mum came to ask me to follow her to buy my new bed but I was too exhausted and I said, no need. I don't need a new bed. She bought for my brothers new beds but I didn't want anymore. She knew I was stressed and she told me to continue and she won't disturb. I was cooped up in my room, alone, doing my revisions and leaving my phone at the corner of my room.

I miss him and I'm still worrying over him. Even now. My phone is causing trouble and I can't do anything. There's no service from just now and my phone automatically shut down by itself, twice.

I wish someone was here to lend me their shoulder to lean on and their ear to listen. I would love to tell him but he was sick and I knew I've been making him bored listening to me talk all the time. Sometimes I don't even think he wants to listen to what i'm saying.

I haven't done my homeworks. At all. Untouched and I bet you that the teachers are going to scream their heads off at me and see red but I can't help it. I did the Music After school thingy in less than 5 minutes and it's the most UGLIEST, EFFORTLESS "poster" I've ever made. *clap hands*

He's asleep now anyway, and I hope he's fine. Izhak, I miss you. Sigh.

Wei hong just told me he's fine also. Which is good. Eventhough I couldn't help much.

Everyone else are all asleep except me. Oh great. I'll just sleep now. I can't complete my homeworks for sure.

In approximately 1 hour, it's our 2nd monthsary. Awesome way to celebrate our monthsary - me passing my fever to him. Sorry handsome. Oh, it's the 2nd monthsary yknow. It's ultra fast. It feels like it was only 1 week we've been together. To infinity and beyond! I love you. Mwah!