I don't regret my past. I just regret the time I spent with the wrong people.

Sahur, and got bored after sahur. Twitter's timeline was ultra silent and I was the only one updating. Halfway through, I got stomachache. Ha. Ha. Ha. Went out and missed the bus so I took 240 and dropped off at Lakeside MRT. Missed the buses again. Walked awhile and got super ultra tired. So, I just took the bus that came after. Not even bothering whether that bus will go my school or not. Reached. Met boyfriend. Went to canteen. He was totally hyper just now. Until I talked about beaches and memories then he didn't want to talk to me anymore. He got all moody and stuffs and I was literally just so lost and confused. What was I to say if everything I say hurts him and all the time I storytell, it just gets back to my past. That's me, I storytell a lot and I talk about my past a lot. Went to class and meh yeah.

DEAR > PE > Maths > Recess > Chemistry > Biology > Maths > Lunch > CE > MT

DEAR: they talked about the Edusave character award or something like that, which I obviously wasn't paying attention at all because at the end of the day, I'll confirm not be nominated at all. Like pfft, me? Who would want to vote for me? Pigs might fly.

PE: Played volleyball. Irony how the students fasting were enthusiastically playing while the others were just sitting there and looking at us play.

Maths: Continued with Maths worksheet and learnt a new Amaths chapter 5.

Recess: Read my book. Pretty little things - I think I stated my book title wrongly yesterday. Haha, whatever.

Chemistry & Biology: Continued studying.

Maths: Got back amaths test paper back and i failed. terribly. Oh joy, I'll never ever succeed in life. I don't want to fail. I want to pass but i'm just not like those students who can easily digest everything they learnt. I don't sleep in class at all and I pay attention but compared to a person who doze off in class all the time, I STILL GET LOWER MARKS.

Lunch: He didn't text me throughout the whole day. I was just waiting and waitimg and waiting and waiting but he totally ignored me. I was having major headaches and felt ultra pain on my head throughout. I could just hit my head on the table but meh, I just hit my head with my hand.

CE: Racial Harmony Day reflections, again. Guess my school really love reflections. Pshh. Read up a write-up on the different religions. There's mainly: Islam, Christians, Catholics, Taoism, Hinduism, Buddhism, Sikhism etc.

MT: While everyone finished school, we still have 2 periods of lessons. Hilman was super duper ultra annoying in class and he keep touching my shoulders just because he sat behind me. Oh god, DON'T TOUCH ME. I'm like so ugh, punch your face ah! 😣 Sesungguhnya saya sedang berpuasa.

NDP rehearsals - so boring. My friends and I? We all had so much fun but I was silencing myself just now just 'cause I was hurt. I was hurt and I couldn't do anything about it. I didn't want to hurt anyone back, but thenhe totally ignored me. I was completely invisible. I feel so ajiqpjowxjjzlapwc. Every NDP rehearsal, every single time.

I waited for him to talk to me, but he didn't even attempted to. I tried talking to him, do you know what happened? I got ignored. Telling him to go with his friends. Oh, I see how it is now, I guess that I should just be treated that way all the time whenever there's his friends then.

When on the way out of the gate, we'll always make the turnstile stuck so that a friend can't come out. Then Huda was the last one out and Fatin & Liyana were in the turnstile together and they were stucked. Fatin whispered to us telling us to let Fatin & Liyana out then run away. When I let go, they ran away and I was holding Huda in the turnstile. Then I turned and screamed and they all ran away. Ahh, hyper kids. Hehehe, then in the end we got tired running. We turned and Huda was laughing on the ground, so we stopped and waited for her. Hehehe 😂

Sacrificing not being with him when he's with his friends - like it's not bad enough. The sacrifices we make just for his friends. His brothers. Now this is what I get. Unfair situation but whatever. I guess if he's happy, I'll try to be too.

The fact that he totally ignored me and acted as if I wasn't existing. The fact that I was invisible to him. The fact that I attempted to talk to him and got ignored. The fact that my sacrifices for him just for him and his friends to still be close went down the drain because as far as i know, i'm not happy at all. I said go with your friends but the fact that his "go with your friends" is also = my girlfriend doesn't exist.

Yknow how suckish today is? Ultra. I was walking towards mt just now with all the E4s and when we were walking we sort of "joined force" with the rest of the MT class. Guess what? Someone said this to me when I was walking behind her,"No one welcomed you to walk with us. What are you doing here? Go away." I was so hurt that i just walked away. Am I being sensitive or ouch, does that really hurt. Last time I smile to you, you tell me to stfu. Then I going down to recess with all of you guys you pushed me away and tell me to go. Then now this? For goodness sake, we're going to the same class, how am I not supposed to walk the same route near you?


Abrupt ending.

Ok no, Fatiha told me Effa got her number from someone else. What's your problem uh Effa? Don't so stuck up can? Please. You barely know any of us and you want our numbers.

Oh and buka Laksa and Nasi Goreng but I just have no mood or appetite to eat, so I just drank bandung. Hehe ✌

Don't let a bad day make you feel like you've a bad life.