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I hate feeling like I'm not good enough for the person I like.
QOTW > Social Studies > Maths > Recess > English > Biology Alisha came to me and Hein Htet and was like,"Aww so sweet." Random much? Today's QOTW was about Racial Harmony from classes 3N1 and 3N2. Both were equally good. 3N1 talked about how different religions fast and it's not only Muslims. Well, tomorrow is the first day we will fast. Mdm Tay told all the non-muslims to take care of us when we're fasting. Hehe, then I turened to Wei Hong and told him to take care of me. Then Wee Heng was like,"James will kill you." then I was laughing so badly. Wee Heng kept asking me about menstruations during Ramadhan and I was like.. Ugh. Meh. Then Wei Hong told me,"Zarinah, I want to treat you everyday from tomorrow onwards." and he told me to consecutively not fast during Ramadhan for 11 years and on the 12th year, I fast the whole year. Whut? Makes no sense. Hein htet was in senang diri position at the back of the hall then he still can wave at me! So cute. Social Studies, Mrs Selina Wong entered and the first thing she did was to check the seating arrangement. I was sitting at my old seating arrangement (Vanessa's seat) and Vanessa was sitting at my seat. Yeah, we swapped places. When Mrs Wong said she wanted to check, Vanessa quickly sat at the seat behind me to tell me to change, but we were too late. When it was my turn, she said,"Vanessa?" then she looked at me and nodded and went on to the next. Then, my real seat was empty. Then when Mrs Wong asked,"Zarinah?" the whole class was like,"Absent cher, absent!" Oh god. Hahaha. I'm officially Vanessa, I see. When Mrs Wong logged into her Laptop the screen showed her IC number so we assumed that the first two numbers were always the year you were born, and we calculate and found out her age is... 96 years old. Haha. Then she told us about the CURRY CHICKEN made from human body parts. So inhumane. Ew. Maths, we continued on uhm eh wait, seriously, I don't know which chapter I'm at now or whether it's A maths or E maths. Shit. Hehe. Recess, I ate Nasi Lemak. Nice, nice, nicest. Then we attempted to play Hopscotch and Capteh but we failed terribly because we just suck at everything. English, Mdm Nisha came into class wearing a cheongsam. A super revealing cheongsam. The slit at the sides exposed like 80% of her thighs and you could see her panties - black colour. OMG MY EYES OMG NEED TO WASH WITH DETERGENT. Then she continued with her personal ghost story which I've heard a lot of times since she've been teaching me since secondary 1. We saw Mdm Nisha's NRIC and we assumed the first two numbers are the YOB again. Then we found out her age is 36. Biology, Mr Justin Tan brought us to the Lab and we watched him disect the heart of a sheep which was super ew because the heart looks like a brain and the inside have so many ew stuffs ew ew ew. I was standing beside him so I could see mostly. Like, ew. There was a container filled with blood then they were all too enthusiastic over taking photos and stuffs and then Yuxin's phone dropped into the water and Jennifer like without hesitation, just quickly grabbed the phone back even when it was in a pool of blood. That must be the world's most sweetest thing a friend could do. The smallest thing that people do, can result in someone's wide smile. NPCC. With Fatin, Huda and Fatiha at canteen while Izhak went to Solat Jumaat, Liyana and Natasya went to Chemistry supplementary. Changed into uniform then went to take over Secondary 1s. Sigh, I want to take over Secondary 2s. For goodness sake, they're like so much better than teaching the newbies. Get my blood boiling all day long. I was literally trying so hard to make them learn all their drills but they're just so stubborn and assumed that they're just right. Sigh, let them learn slowly. After their trainings, all the NCOs have to go do Rifle Drills with Mr Khairul. Although it may sound weird, Mr Khairul is so much better than our Unit Drill Instructors (Ahmad and Ronald) because he revised with us all of it and yet he made it fun but not slacking. We were supposed to do our Mock promotion test but then i complained and Mr Khairul heard then he changed plans. Ha. Ha. Ha. When I was doing Rifle Drills, I was looking at boyfriend doing his PT. Ah, so cute. Out of a sudden, his heart pain then I really cannot do anything then I can't concentrate and I think Mr Khairul knows because he looked at me and didn't scold or test me because I totally couldn't concentrate throughout. I was ultra worried then Mr Khairul asked if we wanted break so I nodded but when I went to him he just ignored me, talked a little but he was ignoring me. Maybe he was really in pain. Then after that, we all had to bersurai and luckily it was in front of bookshop because I had to be the Parade Commander and if I had to do it at the quadrangle, I'd probably just faint straight. Ron and Noah came and was like,"Eh I come NPCC because of you leh! " Aww, so sweet but I feel so guilty because they had to talk to Mr Huang and Mr Koh and also John then they fought and john cried. I don't know all these, Noah told me. Oh my god, I feel so bad. Sigh, I shall personally request for me to be in-charge of the Sec 2s next week. If possible. I felt bad again not waiting for Izhak, I'm so sorry dearest boyfriend. So, so, so, so sorry. I know, I know I'm your worst girlfriend ever and that I'm not sweet, I'm selfish, stupid, dumb, ugly and all the bad stuff la. sorry. Went to terawih with Fatiha & Huda. Nana and didi was there. I saw Hapyz and I totally lost my mood. Went into masjid and saw haziqusyairizhak. Haha, they're so fast. Went up and solat for 8 rakaat only because we were too tired from the trainings. Went down and saw boyfriend and gang again and found out he salam-ed Hapyz and gang. At least he respects you. He doesn't deserves cold stares from all of you. Just because all of you smoke or what, you think you're gangsters? Underworld gangsters? You think you're that tough? Oh, hell no. I'm not scared of you and I'll never be. Never be scared of all of you guys. You and your gang-staaaas. So they went to 7-eleven and then we went home. The gang was totally intimidating us and Huda was like wasting time on whether to go home or not. They were calling James James James when we passed by. What? You've a problem with my boyfriend? Are you gay? Do you want him? Ew, no. I know he's handsome, you don't have to stare at him for so long. Do you know how hurtful it is everytime I look at my ex with his GANGsta. Trying to intimidate us and showing who's boss ayes? It hurts so freaking bad whenever I look at them and think about how he told his gang that I broke up with him because I had a new dude? Wtf. 1) You're the one who had a new girl first. 2) You're the one who played timer over me. So it hurts damn badly whenever I rewind to the time where I saw the picture where he kissed another girl who's wearing a scarf? Contradicting much. So, who's the one who cheated on who and who's the one who left who? Then you srill have the cheeks to go around telling people that it was my fault? Oh why was I stupid enough to even be with him and still had feelings for him back then before I was attached, and he was already attached. I still respect al those seniors yknow but sometimes it's just not worth it. Never mind, I shall respect them no matter what because afterall they're my seniors. I'm such a blur sotong today. 1) I dropped my pill and found it in my pocket when I was walking and talking with izhak in the morning. 2) I dropped all my foods during recess & lunch. 3) I accidentally dipped my hands into Fatin's chicken chop's gravy. 4) I forgot to put condensed milk or sugar into my milo and my milo was all chocolatey throughout. HEIN HTET, Y U SO HANDSOME! ok byebye mwaaaah.   |
