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Dear: Read the book while Liyana, Natasya and Huda went to TSR. Natasya told Ms Khoo about the dude who we saw masturbating in public that time - which is so gross. I still don't get what's up with dudes and temptations. Can't you control your lust and do it elsewhere private? Instead of in public. What's so good and showing the world your penis? Disgusting. Damn gross.

PE: Went to library and we learnt about dental care which has always been my weakest. I've the most ugliest teeth and gums ever. Stacked teeth, all overcrowding. My gums look like as though as if I smoke but I actually don't. It's hereditary and I just hate it. A lot. Natasya and Huda were laughing at the 3E3's PE teacher and Mr Seo came and was like,"Jangan kurangajar eh." and I was there smiling to myself thinking why are all the teachers suddenly talking in malay. Cuteness.

Maths: Did our test on graph and I actually forgot about how to sketch. There was this question that said from the graph, solve 2 to the power of x = 6. What's that supposed to mean?

Recess: Went to the library and the tables and chairs weren't arranged the way they've always been because of the morning PE session we had. Then we went to the librarian and this was our conversation. "Can we-" "NO PLEASE DO NOT MOVE THE TABLES AND CHAIRS." yes, we did not get to complete our sentence and she answered us so angrily. Then we walked away and I said,"Abeh mana nak-" and she cut me again and said,"IF YOU WANT, YOU SIT ON THE FLOOR AH." I dislike my school librarian. So arrogant and always so fierce. I asked nicely also must show attitude. Liyana had a 30 cents fine and she just scolded her about it? Pathetic. It's just 30 cents and it was since Sec 1? Ew. Some more she's just so bias to guys. Ugh. Malay guys. Malay upper secondary guys.

Chemistry: Continued with our test and yeah, the test that I failed. Terribly. Ha. Ha. Ha.

Biology: Continued studying on the cardiac actions of the heart and yes I drew a heart on my notebook which I failed at. Ha. Ha. LUB DUB.

Maths: Continued studying Chapter 5 of amaths and um we're done but I'm still confused on drawing graphs with the mod on. Especially when we can't literally draw it on the graph paper, because in Amaths we can only draw Linear Law graphs on graph paper. The rest are all sketchings, which I suck at.

Lunch: Cut short but I stayed in class to do my math homework which i completed exactly when we have to go to the hall.

Assembly: At hall, to watch the Honours' Day ceremony or something like that. Then Wei chuan and Wei hong were so annoying behind me. They kept clapping non-stop and this is serious, they clapped. NON-STOP together with their ooooh. They only stopped their ooooh after Mr Razak was like,"Any other sounds should not be heard." This year, not a lot of people ace alot of subjects in one go, like last year's. After assembly went to class and got back progress report slip/file. Haha. I failed Amaths and Chemistry. Yes you see that "Haha", it's redundant. Obviously I feel disheartened. There's nothing to be proud of when you've failed something and the other results are just too much pain to the eyes.

Mt: No mood at all. I still don't get what's up with Cikgu farah and always picking on me. She was totally aiming at me. All the time. I kept quiet throughout and she still find things to talk about, aimed at me. What does she exactly want? It's annoying.

After school: went to the library to watch them perform their music after school. Hm, when I came only Ms Liau was already so pissed off. I didn't check my phone but I saw her text sent before I went there talking about someone. Apparently this someone refused to use the mic or something and when they sang, cannot even hear anything. The camera is there for a purpose. To show formality towards the camera is important because it's reflecting on yourself at the end of the day. All that's been caught on tape will be used for the guitar's formal checks ie achievements etc. So if you're making a fool of yourself on the camera, it's showing to the principal that all these while you've not been doing anything productive. So yeah. Ms Liau told us about how Afiq wanted to pee in his pants because he was too nervous. Afiq was actually out of tune and he didn't want to open his mouth to sing. He was practically gritting his teeth throughout. I've heard him sing, I know he can sing. He just need to open up more. Everyone else were awesome on stage. *clap hands* Although it was sort of informal, i know everyone else can do better the next time. No more cock-ups the next time. The next one will be on Hari Raya. It's a hari raya special, so songs are based on hari raya and everyone should start preparing their songs. It'll be two weeks from now.

Next week will be our NDP. So, we'll have our normal routine of the marching-in contingent to the singing of songs and stuff. Bo-ring. It's just the same every single year which makes it ultra boring.

Went to the Jurong West Police Station near JJC to report something. We've been there from 4.30 to 6pm. Omg, was super duper ultra tired. With huda, liyana and fatiha. The police officers there were all malays uh! And the one who was assisting us with the case was so pretty and flawless. Her jawline's so perfect like Barnabas Collins (Johnny Depp) in Dark Shadows. After which, walked all the way to Hua Yi, and took bus back home around 6.30. Saw Saib and we went home respectively. Pizza for buka.

Buka. It was azan and they were fighting. For once, I want the dinner table to be peaceful. I know my dad's not like this, he's always joking around with the family and stuffs. I know since young, there's just too many deep dark secrets I've known about him, that I've found out. Every buka and sahur, he'll always be the only one talking throughout which was perfectly fine to us eventhough we'll always get reprimanded if we talk while eating. He left all his dishes there and walked off even though he was the one who always scold us if we don't wash our own dishes. The problem is, he's getting worse. I don't want to potray him as bad father. No words can describe how a good father he is but in terms of carrying the role of a leader in the family, he failed. My mum used to be a christian. She needs guidance in being an Islam. I don't see why she can behave as a better Muslim than he can. I'm in no position to judge any possibilities but to be honest, when there's azan, it's only respect to lower down the volume of the tv - afterall no one was watching it and he still dared to show his attitude and scolded all of us. Obviously, we can only keep quiet to avoid further conflicts. I can't go on anymore. (I will only share this with Izhak later.)




We've been planning to go Buka together as friends since before Ramadhan started and every single time we plan, someone just ONE PERSON will always find an excuse not to go buka together. Like out of 30 days in a month, you can't just tell your parents you need to buka? 1 out of 30. We're not putting a gun on any of your heads but I also rather buka at home with my family but why not for once buka together as friends? We can rapatkan sirratulrahim while breaking fast together. We've planned this for weeks and I don't see why some people can go to impromptu plans than our plans that we make way earlier. If you really do not wish to buka together, tell us. Yknow how hard it is to find a date for us to all buka together? Not that hard. If you really want something, you've to do your best in getting it what. Obviously if you want to buka with us, you'll confirm find ways to go with us. No excused. No reasons. Just go.

Hafiz Tic Tac texted me. That blondie. He suddenly talked to me about um, foods and drinks. Apparently, it's a sin to try hard to make someone salivate over foods and drinks. It's a sin to make someone batal their puasa on purpose. What's your motive in coming back and texting me? We used to be so close then you deleted me off facebook, then you unfollowed me off twitter and deleted my number and just when I want to stop thinking about our friendship, just when I've finished caring about our friendship, you'll just start to talk to me again. Like I said, if you want to leave me once, don't ever return. I'm not a place where you can visit anytime you want to. You told me that this "not friends anymore" thingy was all primary school shits? Oh really, how about you reflect that on yourself who's doing those shits? I've long forgotten you as my friend and you're now just a stranger with memories. Don't text me. You left, it wasn't me. What kind of a friend are you even?

The many reasons why I'm so blessed that I chose Izhak as my boyfriend over you, Hafiz. Your attitude is beyond words. Preposterous.

I can't seem to type out my problems so I'll just tell Izhak on the phone later. I shall go prepare full uniform right now

So, toodles. Kiss kiss hug hug. Bye.