Happy 4th monthsary to you dearest.

Let me see, how did we started? We talked on Twitter for awhile and you slowly confessed to me that you sort of have a little bit of feelings towards me and you were scared to admit it at first. You said you like me then you said just kidding, then you said you're not kidding and that you really like me. The reason why you said you were kidding was because you were afraid it would affect the friendship we have, which was very thoughtful. During the second night of the guitar camp during BBQ, you attempted to talk to me but we were both shy. Even so, you braced yourself up and pluck up your courage to talk to me. When you did, you sat on bird shit beside me - which was ultra epic. I reached home almost at 12AM and you were so sweet to have had waited for me (because you usually sleep as early as 9 or 10, but because of me, you sleep so late). You asked me whether I was sitted comfortably etc, and I said no, since I was in the bus. Hehe, then you waited for me to reach home and showered which was as late as 12 AM plus and you asked me. I then questioned you with a lot of "what ifs", and you assured me that if i never try, i will never know.

For the rest of that day, I could not sleep. I was super elated because the guy who is super popular among the sec 2s and admired by many girls, like me. I forced myself to sleep and the next day was the last day of the guitar camp. I went to NPCC shooting competition where I got disqualified because there were only me, Yuozi and Fatiha in the girls team which was outrageous. I was super sad and disappointed and you cheered me up. You helped me out at guitar and at that moment it proved that you were a responsible dude. I went back to guitar camp and when Fatiha went out with Fitri to eat at KFC, I was supposed to go for Maths supplementary but I was scared to. I sat at the AVA for awhile and you approached me and talked to me. After which, Amirah told me and Haziq to go collect the food but somehow you went with me. We walked to the MRT station to collect the food as we wanted to save Ms Liau's money, and throughout the whole journey, we bonded further. It was epic when you wanted to take the whole bag of chilli and all. You quarelled with me over who to carry which plastic bag. Hehehe.

On the 1st of June 2012, at exactly 12AM, i gave you my answer - YES. Someone apparently woke up in the middle of the night and shouted in joy - shocking his own brother. That was the beginning of our relationship. However, on that day, I had to go to Survival Training Camp and you had a NCC course. Before I went to the camp, you called me and you said "sayang" to me, in front of your friends which was so -aww-. Apparently, after you said how delicious air katira was, your phone battery went flat and I had to survived without you. At Pulau Ubin, I realized that the signal is still Singapore's, however I could only text you once it was lights out - which was a whole day of exhaustion. When I texted you, you already slept and you only replied me the next day - when you were supposed to go to Myanmar. I was quite crestfallen as I did not want you to go, we weren't even properly together in the relationship but 11 days passed by fast. I went to Perak from 6-10th and that made my days go by fast. We changed out relationship status on the 5th when we were in Perak and Myanmar respectively. It was kind of saddening because we both were waiting for each other and looking for wifi. I was also suffering with my ass-aches remember? On the 13th you were supposed to return but you didn't, as I waited and waited in suspense, you only arrived back on the 14th. I was super duper elated when I heard you touched down. On the first day after you returned, which was a Friday, you went to solat jumaat and I met you since you wanted to. Even though we were almost a month together, it was still very awkward as we were both shy but you seemed to be able to talk to me so normally like as though we have been 12345 years together.

Me. And. Him.
We gradually became closer and closer and 3 months later, we are here together, strong. I feel very lucky that I have an adorable boyfriend who's not only smart but also handsome. You're like an all-in-one package that I've received as a present from God. I'm so thankful and grateful to have you in my life. You have showered me with love, care, concern and also laughter. You made me laughed so hard every single day until I always end up running to the toilet. Your sarcasms sometimes may hurt me but on the other side, it's sort of funny. I feel insecure being with an all-in-one person like you, at times but slowly, I began to accept the fact that sometimes there are people way better than you in life. Like as if it wasn't bad enough to be surrounded by pretty and skinny girls in my clique. However, I looked on the bright side, at least i can proudly show off to everyone how amazing my boyfriend is. Actually, to be honest, for the first time ever, I am actually loving someone because I love him not because I'm forced to because I did not want to hurt the person's feelings. It's quite amazing how I'm actually looking forward to this pink and purple cotton candy love life I'm in with you right now.

Here, I've no intention to hurt anyone's feeling in one way or another. When the first time he asked me to be his girlfriend, I was already nodding my head like there's no tomorrow. I wanted to be his. I asked all those "what-ifs" not because I didn't want to be with him, neither did I feel unsure, but instead I asked because I had to stall for time to breathe in, breathe out and pinch myself up to wake myself up. For my past relationship, I wasn't quite happy to be in it. I hated it so much. Even from the time I started to be with my ex, I hated it. I was actually haunted by a dude for 6 whole months and when I accept, it wasn't out of willingness but because it was out of sympathy. I didn't want to make myself feel like a bad guy, or that all his efforts go down the drain. My ex asked me for stead by making a song, blindfolding me, going down on his knees and putting the necklace on my neck on the 10.10.10? Oh please, so dramatic. I was pressurized by all his friends. Comparing this relationship and my previous one, I truly notice that by comparing and contrasting, I realize that even if what my ex did was sweet, I did not ever loved him 100%. I only did so like 75% of my heart. But Izhak, well even if it was just a mere text message or a call, I was truly truly truly admiring him and loving him 123%. I can swear that all these are true. I must have been so young and foolish to even bother going through the hardships and plastic feelings I showed towards that ex. This is true love, the one with Izhak is real. It's really what I wanted. The love I have right from the beginning I've talked to him.

You are liked by my friends and some even said that maybe one day, they'll end up with you. I was just over there being an average girl and I didn't know that you'll like me. Because i know that the chances are very very low. I mean, look at me and look at my friends. They're way prettier. Look at you, you're so handsome, and smart. Why would someone like you, like someone like me. I was super shocked when I found out that you have feelings for me back then when you were in Secondary 1. It was kind of weird because why would someone like you, like someone like me. And the irony is that you're so close to my friends but you chose me - the one who's never talked to you that much before.

My love life with you, Izhak, is very very special. You're special in every way. You're the most special guy I've ever had to be my boyfriend. I have no say as to what might awaits in future but as of now, I believed that you're still my one and only. Out of this 4 months, we only have like 3 fights, which is very good because if yknow me, I'm the type of person who always quarrels with everyone. Actually, I've never did quarrel with my friends but I always am the type who always find trouble. I have this privilege all thanks to you. You're very patient and tolerant with me and I appreciate you for that. I just don't know why but all our fights, I can't even stay angry with you for so long. You're just too adorable and I can't help it but to just give in/up to you. There's so much to say but your face, voice and words always instantly calm me down. I love you, Izhak and may we last to infinity and beyond.

Here's most of the silly photos we snapped together. From our first monthsary, till now 😘