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Thursday, October 11, 2012 @ 11:16 PM
So the dumbest shit just happened to me. Izhak has been asking me to go out with them to go Peninsula. Obviously, I want to go, like duh. which girlfriend doesn't want to follow the boyfriend? So, half of me was hesitant though because he was going with his friends which were all very unwelcoming. Trust me, you want to compare my friends with his friends? HA. HA. HA. Yesterday I asked Liyana if WE can have a movie marathon, she said ok. However, my mum said I can't go out only until someone else comes home and take over my role of taking care of the house since no one's at home. So, the only way obviously is to wait till 2PM or so to go out right since people will come home. So at 11AM I told Liyana I can't go because well, I CAN'T. Then she said ok, it's fine with her. Then Izhak, on the other hand, wanted so badly for me to go to Liyana's house? I already said I'm not going and he said that he don't want me to fight with Liyana. After he go solat, he told me that i can follow, his mood changed. Of course I will follow, but on the other side I was telling Liyana everything so she would understand and she apparently and OBVIOUSLY did. I told my mum I cancelled the plans already. when I wanted to go out because he told me to, i apparently go and iron out my clothes when he asked me to follow and in the end... Sigh.

WHO CAN GET READY IN 5 MINUTES SEY. Then he just left, haahahahahahahahaha not even taking the initiative to wait. I wait for him to sleep first before i sleep no matter how sick or tired i am. I spend all my time with him even i'm totally busy with school. So, it doesn't matter la that he want to go. Just go la. ok have fun.

Can i not talk to anyone at all because i'm so pissed off right now, prepared my stuffs and he didn't wait. Now exams are over but i feel the stress i'm going through is just so similar towards everything now. Family problems, friendship crisis, relationship fights. I'm tired. I swear I'm seriously very very very tired right now.

Don't worry, don't judge him. He's still the best dude I've ever had and he will always be the best of the best. I love you Izhak, 'cause for sure on his side of the story he've made several sacrifices for me too. At least he cared about what my friends' feelings. He's still my understanding baby boy, and no one can ever ever ever take him away from me! If not... watch out uh. His mine ok! Please back off, i love him too much for me to lose him 😊


The only cure for me to be happy is to see your face and be with you. Oh yes, i'm obsessed but well, that's just me. I'm sorry that i've overly obsessed with you, yknow I love you right?

I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of yelling.
I'm tired of being sad.
I'm tired of pretending.
I'm tired of being alone.
I'm tired of being angry.
I'm tired of feeling crazy.
I'm tired of feeling stuck.
I'm tired of needing help.
I'm tired of remembering.
I'm tired of missing things.
I'm tired of being different.
I'm tired of missing people.
I'm tired of feeling worthless.
I'm tired of feeling empty inside.
I'm tired of not being able to let go.
I'm tired of wishing I could start all over.
I'm tired of dreaming of a life I could never have.
Most of all, I'm tired of being tired.