School is atrocious. Yes, apparently too horrible that I somehow can't get my spellings right anymore but I don't even bother to bother. Yes, make sense though.

I have a truckload of homeworks waiting for me to complete them all. Chemistry SPA was quite okay (actually not because I was trembling throughout and the fact that my burette was leaking and the pipette filler contained acid because I sucked it up too much, oh gosh) What's wrong with me today! Biology SPA was horrible, psh. Be tolerant, lil girl. There's definitely more to come.

So me and Fatiha went to school late today. Ha. Ha. Bad asses in the house yo! Ok kidding, saw Kak Fasya in the bus. Pretty girl! (seeing her reminds me of us baking rainbow cake together) ((and baking reminds me that i have to bake again!)) It's horrible how I barely have time for myself, at all because of all the outrageous upcoming schedules that wears me out to the core.

I wished I can just, for once, calm myself down again and just stop worrying about exams and studies but meh. I'm glad my friendship problems are long over. Family? Society? Let God handle it. I'll just concentrate on everything I have to concentrate on right now i.e. STUDIES, STUDIES, STUDIES.

Studying is somehow getting more hardcore and I'm so blessed that I'm getting hardworking to complete my homeworks and actually pushing myself forward to complete them. Teehee! If not, the homeworks might just continuing piling up like no one's business. That's okay, I'll catch up with everyone else as soon as I can. After November's over, I'll pay extremely close attention to studies studies and studies. No more distraction. Flashmob? Prom? Get it done and over with now. But SYF is also being an extra ass, ok nevermind. I can do this!

Just. Stay. Optimistic.


Ok, away from study! -poof-




H U N G R Y



Hahaha, ok sorry, out of nowhere and I'm hungry. Psh.




So, now sidetrack to my favourite topic of the day. Actually, of the month. Actually, no, of the year. CHEY NO LA. FAVOURITE TOPIC OF ALL TIME. Guess? Guess! Faster guess!

Hahaha! Yes, it's about *drums rolling* IZHAKKKKKKKK!

My ever so wonderful and perfect boyfriend. Actually, I think i find him more than perfect though but you know he's just so adorable and stuff and when I look at him, I keep falling for him more. The purpose of this post today is not to praise him and yknow talk about how perfect he is but it is to apologize to him.

Sorry that I'm always so restless nowadays. Sorry that I'm always so busy nowadays. Sorry that I'm not pretty enough. Sorry that I'm not the perfect partner of yours. Sorry that I made you sad. Sorry that I'm always hurting you. Sorry that you have to compromise with me all the time. Sorry that I'm a spoilt child. Sorry that you always have to stay up late with me. Sorry that I'm not understanding. Sorry that you're way more amazing than me. Sorry that I'm not smart enough. Sorry that I'm not cool as you. I'm sorry for a lot of things but I'm sorry to say this, but SORRY BUT I LOVE YOU MORE.

Thank you for always understanding me and being there for me at my most darkest times. You know that all these words can't ever express how I really feel. It's definitely more than words. More than numbers. More than illustration. I've grown fonder, admire, love, crush, falling for you more and more every single day. It's like I can't stop it. I think I'm way way way more obsessed with him! Especially his smell! Gosh, why smell so nice! Resulting in me having that smell everywhere, everytime. Oh gosh.

Gaaah! I want to continue but it's almost 1AM! Doomed! Ok, goodnight world.

P/s, I love you izhak!