I don't know.

I really don't.

I'm just going to blog this out because I feel like blogging since my boyfriend's asleep right now and I'm still wide awake in 2:16 AM in the morning.

I'm just going to blog it out. No harm done. No animals killed. Hopefully no feelings crushed too.

Just a few months back, I was on Twitter and I happened to saw my ex's photo with his new love and then I wasn't with my prince charming yet. So, I was that lonely girl and just looking at both of them being so sweet and stuffs and I'm just me, back then.

Too bad. No friends to support me because that point of a time I was just shutting myself from the world and running away from reality.

Now, as I looked back at the past and realized how much my ex has given to me. All that I've learnt and all those stuffs done together, I realized how time has flew past very fast. I realized that we've all grown up really quick. Looking at him being happy with his girlfriend made me smile too.

So then, it was my turn to find the true love of my life.

God has blessed me with a very pleasant guy and I'm very grateful because this guy is not like any other guys in the world. For real, he's my "Myanmarian" guy and he has the whole package - which is definitely why I'm so blessed.

He has everything and I mean everything. You name it, you got it. He is smart. He is good-looking. He has the body shape. He is slim. He has a nice hair. He has perfect features. He is rich. He is religious. He is nice. He has good leadership. He is responsible. He is none other than my mr. perfect.

I'm not going to care or give a damn whether someone's going to be a third party in this relationship because there's no fight between us all. To me, I've already won all the battle even before it began. It's both of us against the world now and there's nothing anyone can do about it.

If one day, our relationship were to come down crashing, I wouldn't want the reason to be because of a third party. True, I have no say in what the future brings. True, I can't control my future. True, I don't know whether this is true love. True, I'm still young.

But all these shits are not going to make me suffer again. All these horrible nightmares are not going to repeat itself again because for once, I felt it. I felt what it is like to be in a real and true relationship. Not a relationship where I was peer-pressured in the start and was abused through my journey in the relationship. Not one where I have to fake a smile even when I know I'm sad. Not one where I find out he'd played with my feelings and both of us pretend that everything is just alright.

Because for once, I finally found out that this prince charming of mine is the real one. Even if anything were to happen to our relationship in the future, I know for a phenomenon, I'm going to look back and smile to myself and remind myself that this is really the best I've ever had.

He taught me how to live, laugh and love. He taught me that everyone can flaunt their flaws with confidence. He taught me to love myself. He taught me to laugh loudly and to not bother what people think of you. He was the one who saw me roar and burst into laughters all the time. He saw me in my i-dont-care-what-you-think looks and yet he still love me the way I am. He did not judge me. He taught me to accept reality the way it is. He taught me that you can be beautiful even if there's many others who are. He taught me to not look down on myself. He taught me to live life while we're young. He taught me that even if I put on that messy bun, pull up those high socks, sway that long skirt and go to school as a nerd, he will still love me.

I know he's that perfectionist that wants everything perfect by his side but sadly, I am not. I know he loves girls with curves, long hair, flawless face, adorable giggles, cute noses, and stuffs but I'm none of those but I am really grateful that he has come to terms and accepted me for who I am.

To all those out there who are heartbroken because of love. Those who are madly in love with a person who's obviously not worthy of your love because if they were they'd probably not be messing up your lives and effing up your feelings. Once you've been messed up hard by them, go forward and move on. Don't give a shit about those who act like they're the boss and they own all the guys/girls in their hands. Don't go back to them. What makes you think a person who've hurt you once won't do it again if they've done it more than once? It's not easy for someone to turn over a new leaf overnight. You won't see drastic changes. Give yourself space, so you can see that maybe (usually 99.9999999%) you guys have to get on with life separately and that those who've hurt you terribly and broken your heart into pieces more than 5/6/7/8 etc times are not worth it. Some things are just not meant to be. You just have to accept it!

Maybe one day you'll find your other half like me and one fine day you'll realize that this world isn't filled with fears. You can totally work out with it and you'll realize that you just have to open up your eyes and take a breath. Give yourself a chance and wait for love to come seek for you. Give opportunities. Sometimes, the one for you is right before your eyes.

You won't understand how blessed and happy I am to have him in my life. You probably wouldn't want to know too but I believe in sharing joys and here I am sharing my joy to you.

There's a hope in everyone. There's a shimmer of light at the end of the dark road. Just believe and have faith.

I believe that me and my prince charming will go quite far together in life. In fact, to infinity & beyond!

May God bless us. Thank you. Amin.

This post wasn't meant to harm anyone's feelings or mess it up. It's just to explain how my life has changed ever since ok. Maybe a detailed one on the end of year? Since 2013 is coming, it's time to let yourself loose. Shake off all those bad memories. Party hard and release all the burden. If you don't want that stone to turn into a rock or a mountain, get rid of it fast because it'll definitely profit you to see life in a brighter light.

Good morning, peace out and have a nice day. 😊